It's been so long since I've altered this site I thought now's as good a time as any.Problem is a HUGE lack of inspiration for topics.
2 people died last week (at my mother's hospital) from Suicide. Now there's a happy topic. On the brighter side, only 20% of suicide attempts are succesful. That only depresses me more though. Imagine making that disgusting choice. Imagine reaching that part of your life where nothing is worth any thing and you can't keep your head above water. Imagine deciding that this world would be better off without you.
And then Imagine failing... Imagine how useless you must feel when you can't even kill yourself.
Then comes that hard reality that nobody really cares. The world doesn't stop. Nobody special comes to talk you through your difficulties.
You tell your whole life to your councillor, explaining (in detail) the worst moments you've lived though. You tell this person everything, from your strongest feelings to what flavored ice cream your were eating on "that day". But this person still refers to you as "my patient" and sees this as a job. He goes home at the end of the day, leaves you behind.
Your friends spend time at your bed, but get back to their lives all the same. Coffee to wake up, work to do, issues to sort out.
What would you do with yourself?
You can't leave the room, you've got nobody to spend time with but a bunch of weirdo's and a guy who's "just doing his job"
And what's with mental institutes any way? You take a huge bunch of people with serious problems and you put them together? Spending time with a bulimic won't cheer me up, don't know about you? | 
